Today I saw you from the corner of the coffee shop. I was sitting at the corner of the shop having fruit toast and butter when I suddenly saw a familiar image past my sight. I knew it had to be you. I have not seen you in the longest time. Each time while walking by myself, I would always steal some time to think of a possible chance of us crossing paths. I cannot remember the last time we exchanged smiles. Almost as if I could not remember how you looked physically. This familiar image was suddenly very fresh and sent shivers down my spine. I secretly hoped you recognised me but also having the fear of false hopes, I just kept to myself and had my eyes followed every inch of your foot steps. Suddenly, you turned, we engaged in eye contact, but I quickly broke it by blinking away as if I never noticed your existence. I cringed, not knowing what to do, dropped my knife and felt like a complete fool! He had a big smile plastered on his face and I could sense that he was walking towards my table. As he came nearer, I managed to put on a oh-what-a-coincidence smile on my face, under my skin, I knew every cell was jumping with excitement to have him noticed me. It has been years...it ended up with I-love-you-dearly-as-a-friend on the surface kind of relationship, but deep down when he told me he had a crush on this other girl, my heart felt like it has just been stabbed. This was the guy who put the idea of "soul mate" into my head. We once were lovers, but broke up and became best friends. Like as if becoming best friends with your ex works?? Total bullshit! Never before I had my feelings altered for him although the person who proposed for a break up was yours truly. "Young and naive" did not make sense to me before, did not even know of an appropriate time to put them in use. Anyway, he was approaching and in no time, I was in his arms! We hugged and he said something along the lines of "can't believe it's really you..." I was just melting and a stood there like a tree trunk! Not knowing what to say or how to react I just replied, "Gosh same!" By now I felt like a total idiot for deliberately avoiding eye contact with him when our eyes met. What a fool! As I was on cloud nine enjoying his presence and his familiarity, something happened...
Someone was constantly tapping on my shoulder. Who could it be? It was supposed to be a "you and me" moment and nothing should interrupt. By now I am almost annoyed by the tapping on my shoulder.
I turned over and opened my eyes and saw this person who does not even resemble an inch of the person in my dream. It was then that I realised...it was only a dream after all.
**Ever after, forever and ever, till death do us part, soul mate, true love...these will only ever be perfect in our other world**
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