Saturday, May 06, 2006

AWAY FROM HOME...Away from home can be quite difficult at times. Different environment, different people, different games...I sometimes feel like I'm playing on a field with many players but the thing with many players playing on the same field is that every individual leads their own game and can sometimes get so caught up that I feel like I'm playing all by myself. Somehow, family can never be replaced by any other things/creatures/persons/beings...a family will always play together as one and will never forsake each other. That's the most beautiful thing I've leanrt from this thing called life! Anyone can just come and go in your life, but family will always stick together as one and join hands in whatever circumstances.

Many things have been happening at home these couple of weeks...good things though, which I'm really, really happy and glad for and about but I think I could be happier if I were there to witness. First stop, my dad finally got transfered back to work in KL =)(which is really a prayer answered!) after like 5 years of working away from home at this tiny little boring place called Ipoh. Next stop, Cow-Foo-Chai finally tied a knot with Karen! =) Karen's a very simple minded and nice girl from Kelantan. My family drove 6 hours all the way to Kelantan to ask for her hand in marriage from her parents to my uncle and then a month later drove all the way up there again for the big day. I called back couple of weeks before leading up to their wedding and everyone at home was so excited about it! I can't wait to go home to do my part as a niece, to serve tea to the newly weds and to officially call Karen "Cow-Moo-Chai"!

I'm probably going through a phase...a phase where I am really questioning myself of this decision to stay here away from home. Staying here is not at all a bad idea really...I learn to be more independent, develop a stronger character and see things from a wider perspective. But the question is, where exactly is home for me?? Home to me is where family is, a place where I spend most of my time and a place where I have poeple supporting my dreams and walking the walk with me. Well, nowadays I spend most of my time away from home and family, and practically no support whatsoever. So, now you tell me did I just make a sane decision or am I insane??

1 comment:

farah lee said...

you're so sweet! i'm sure you'll go home for good in future, after you've developed yourself here. that's what i would do if i were you cuz i can't be away from my family forever too!