Sunday, October 31, 2010

Shopping?

Lately shopping is the most enjoyable and pleasurable activity on my list. I look forward to shopping every weekend with my parents, where I am not required to think about work or anything stressful for that matter. I must admit I really love it. I love hanging out with my parents and just picking out whatever I want. Most pretty, cute, floral, polka dots, ribbons and bows things/clothes attract me.

After a long day out, with bags of shopping in my room, I'd inspect the items I purchased piece by piece, try them on, hang them up or fold them nicely to look at, admire and adore. After all the fun and luxurious time I had. I now sit in front of the computer again and back to where I started, would begin to worry about work yet again.

Makes me wonder if shopping is a form of escapism for me. When will this end as my wardrobe is almost filled with 50% new clothes, 30% clothes I don't wear, and 20% clothes I wear. I'm afraid my space will not be able to contain my current bad habit. *pouts*

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Half-Boiled Egg

As we were leaving the carpark of HOSKA, we heard a wet kinda "blab" fell on the car. We thought it was one of the ripened mangos like the many suicidal ones that landed on the ground. When we got home, I thought I'd go check on the mango to find that OMG(!) it was an egg!

The egg was the size of an olive. By the time we got home, having driven directly under the blazing hot sun for a good 45 minutes, the egg had solidified and changed its consistency to those of the half-boiled eggs.

Of all the cars in HOSKA, the egg landed on our car! How lucky were we? Was the egg suicidal or did it suffer an accidental fall? Whichever one, it made my heart sink a little. To see an egg, which could have been fully developed into a bird lost its only chance to see the world. How unfortunate to have come this far and ended up losing it all and becoming nothing? This made me a little sad as I related it to instances where we could have become something bigger and stronger, but due to our lack of perseverance and our quick desire to give up, we lose them all!

We were never promised smooth-sailing journey in all that we do. Sometimes the transition from being an egg to a bird is not easy. However, would you rather be a fully developed bird or would you choose to suffer the life of an half-boiled egg, splattering all over some lucky person's car? If you ever thought of blessing some car owners with your egg white, yolk and shell? Think again...Not a very pretty sight, when it's half-boiled on the car, it leaves a stain and it also does not smell very pleasant. Being an half-boiled egg on some person's car may not be the best thing you can do for yourself and for others. Why not suck it up, press on and be a fluffly, flying bird instead?

Thursday, October 14, 2010

RUSH is a four letter word!

The snooze button on my phone is one of the most important buttons for the pig in me. I cannot imagine life without it. I'd be a very grumpy girl. Anyway, yesterday I was supposed to wake up at 8am for class at 10am. The first alarm went off at 8am. Perfect. I would usually hit snooze to enjoy another 10 minutes of sleep before peeling myself off my bed, roll out of it, head to the bathroom clean up, have some breakfast before I hit the road, making my way to uni. Ideally that is how it was supposed to happen.

I don't know if my finger or the snooze button failed me yesterday morning. The next moment, I opened my eyes the clock had 09:10 on it! I sprang out of bed. Shocked. Wondering whose fault was it. Anyway that was no longer important after 2 seconds of debating. I quickly made my bed and pushed myself off it, missing a step down, which probably caused a small bruise on my foot. Took gigantic steps to the bathroom, picked out the first piece of clothing that caught my attention, and headed for the door. In between getting changed and headed for the door, I filled my water bottle and chose my ear rings. As though something possessed me as I was filling the bottle, most of the water from the kettle landed everywhere around the bottle but in the bottle. Then I came to choose my ear rings for the day, picked out a pair with pretty white roses and an off white pearl in the middle. Brought it close to my ear and checked in the mirror. Too dressy. Put back into the box. While doing that dropped them on the floor. The roses landed on the side of one of the petals and resulted in some chipped paint. Ouch. Anyway I had to run, no time to inspect and feel sorry for it. Grabbed my bag and left.

While on the road, traffic was surprisingly a breeze. Took me an unusual 15 minutes to arrive at the destination. Upon arriving at the entrance of the building I was going to park my car, I turned off the radio knowing how the reception would blur out. Right after doing that, I drove into the building, wound down my window, reached out to the red button, pressed it and waited for the mechine to spit me a ticket. But wait. Before that, as I drove to do that, something happened. In my head I was calculating and estimating how much class would I miss...10 minutes maximum, I reckon! And then this happened...*screechhhhhhh*! Now what? For the freaking second time in my life, my car was damaged in this same building! What? Once every semester is the trend, is it? So my being late 10 minutes was obviously underestimated. By the time I got to basement 3, most lots were taken. I had to stop myself from thinking about what happened, opened my eyes wide to look for a lot. When I finally found an illegal lot, which could fit my car, I parked it. I finally got out of the car to inspect. My heart ached.


Lesson learnt: Michelle cannot function in a RUSH!

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

It's Winter!

The coldness is making me feel really lazy and unmotivated. I just want to stay home and hibernate and not move an inch. But it's quite impossible...with tonnes of work and merely 9 more weeks to the end of the race, suddenly I wish I could stop working, let my hair down, put my legs up, and just enjoy the music! Reality is that crunch time is here. When I'm most in need of time,  my days become short, with mostly couldy weather. The air is chilly and wrapping myself up in heavy thick winter clothings is by now the most burdensome effort ever. This depicts the current season of my life...I am in winter.

Being in winter is not fun, with most activities being indoors to keep warm, is beginning to get quite annoying. The burden of my work is like the heaviest weight on my shoulders that I can feel it piercing through my bones. Yet, there is no physical weight on them. I know it's so close, but I can't seem to find the motivation to finish gracefully. This is a challenge. I know it is. I have been told once before that I always run away from discomfort. I do. But right now, right here, suddenly the trick I always pull does not seem to work anymore. Running away will get me no where. I either bite the bullet and dash through or I quit and waste all my past efforts.

Though feeling quite low, I am excited that spring is ahead of me! I can't wait to see flowers blossom and bloom in their own beautiful ways. I know I will get there once this winter is over. Like the four seasons in a year, each season will conclude to make way for a new one to come. That is a promise that will not lie.

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Ten.Ten.Ten

Greetings!

Today is the auspicious TEN.TEN.TEN! =)

Many elaborated cars on the road transporting beautiful brides and handsome grooms around...Many people took the opportunity to exchange vows, celebrate happiness, love and joy. If you got married today, CONGRATULATIONS! =) Indeed it's a special day. 

For those who didn't, hope you did something special too! As for myself, I was treated to a special weekend by the most wonderful person alive! The month of October, the year of 2010...I smell sweetness in the air, because my heart's been joined with the gift most precious ever! Thank you lucky stars for making my dream come true! 

"You complete me!" 


Thursday, October 07, 2010

Confusion

Something in me makes my heart go soft for you...
I'm not the kind of girl who would tolerate nonsense
An eye for an eye is what I'd do...
You want to be mean, I'll play mean too...
But with you, over and again you pull your dirty tricks on me
I'm still finding reasons to forgive and respond to your occasional kindness
Why? I ask myself why?
You make my voice seems powerless
Powerless with confusion
I gather no courage to speak to you as you could bite without warning
Yet I find myself trying again and again
I'm telling you now how sick I have become...
Though I keep telling myself not to make allowances for you
I can't seem to stick to my words
Lots of frustration and irritation rile up within me
No one likes to be hated
But I secretly hope you hate me most and never ever speak to me again
I know I will not be at peace knowing I have an enemy in you
But I know I'd rather appreciate the consistency of you being mean
So please decide, evil from hell or angel from heaven...
Please don't be both because you're confusing the hell out of me!